the family channel's running a 5-hour "gilmore girls" marathon featuring episodes about rory in school... ugh. my dad and i were talking on the porch, wondering where our summer has gone... it seems lately that i've been so obsessed with passing time to bring simon closer to me that i've overlooked the beginning of school and all its impending responsibilities. i was such a crazy person last spring, always freaking out about something, ball of nerves... and now that i've been able to reclaim my time and thoughts i've been so much happier. school pushes everything else out of the way, and for that i resent it so much that i've thought seriously about dropping out more than twice. one more year... 4 more papers... do i really have it in me? i don't even have an idea for my independent study which should have been proposed and approved by may. whoops. *sigh* just thinking about the hell of last semester... my heart beats faster, i get anxious. i'm not prone to anxiety-- i've dealt with shit just fine these last few months. but this... ach. (sidenote: kirk is dumb.)

well at least it means a trip to office max. w00t w00t.